People can judge you as much as they want it, it is free and unlimited but defending yourself is not. Its not!!! You are open to any criticisms but their minds are close to any explanations.
It all started in a question "What if I can do it?" From that question, everything just go down and broke my heart and even my life.
I want to correct her for what she understood on my "open up question", but making her own conclusions, I can't defend myself! I couldn't even explain. You know one thing that I didn't get, when you are so much open to your friends, they feel jealous and they want us to open with them rather than your friends but when you raised it to them, they don't understand the situation, they want to solve it based on their controls, on what they want it to be, they throw you harsh words without considering that it may hurt you.
I want to defend myself but judgments were already thrown. Broken pieces scattered. Emotions are too high. Respect and trust are now issues. I chose to keep my mouth shut before I can say words that may hurt her, respect will be at stake, love will lessen but as the time goes by, those JUDGMENTS coming from her KEEP ON PLAYING ON MY MIND. It makes me broken more!
I hope people will get your side, understand the situation , hear your explanations before making conclusions and make judgments for what you are not. I hope they have the open hearts and minds when you approached them as you open yourself to them.
Now, I think I am losing myself. I don't know who I am. I dont where I am. And I am for what I am not.
If I just know hownto snob all those and pretend that I don't care at all and suck it up! But i was too hard.
I am living in a hell where you cannot control and please every one. You must kbow how to give way, shut your mouth and let them judge you and stick on their conclusions.
