Getting Harder

As long as I try to believe myself that I am okay, the pain is getting harder to hide.

Okay, after all, I tried to be in a relationship but it didn't work I think. If you are reading my posts before, I am referring to the same guy. Again and again! My high school love. Lol

After 5 years being in a college, those suitors, trying to meet other boys but in the end, he was the one that I chose. I decided to be with him even my father doesn't want to, because I still like him, okay its not just like but I do love him.

After months, we were happy, or I was just the one who were happy. Before and after board, he didn't called or texted, okay, okay, yes but it can count on fingers on how many times. Its been 4 months now since then, and yet, no efforts at all. He asked me for a space, I gave it. Now I want breakup but he didn't agree, com'on!!! What are you doing? Holding me so that when you are alone, you still have me. Gahd! Im tired of waiting, tired of believing myself that you will come back coz I can't bear this pain now!

I fall in love once but the pain is killing me.

I wish, he feel this way!

This is really me! Lol. 

Superb Break

This semestral break is one of the most exciting, unforgettable vacation so far. Here's the reason why:

1. Night outs

This time, I know what the feeling of spending nights at Urdaneta City is. Those 3 nights were all unexpected and unforgettable. The first night was I'm with Aladdin and Joan (my elementary friends) thru motorbike. Yea, we were too brave para pumunta ng City at the middle of the night.

The second one, I am with the two buddies. Kuya Arvin (my Guitar and Photography tutor) and my new friend, Joel (our new and young kagawad) and also Joan again (Sinama namin sya para may girl at payagan ako), we had our whole body massage. That was my first time and almost the whole time, all I did was to scream dahil nakikiliti ako. So funny! Right?

Last, connected to the next reasons

2. Joy Ride

After Bistro, where we had our 2 bucket drinks, I assumed that we are really going home but what I didn't expect was, Charmaine decided to give 400 just for the gasoline and we will go to San Fabian beach at the middle of the night? So what do you think of it? Another 'rebellious and wild' thing!!!! That was totally crazy! 5 girls and 1 boy (I, Charmaine, Alona, Joan, Japan and Tigor)

3. Coffee Break

Finally, I experienced the taste of Silver Spoon Cafe located at Urdaneta City. We just had drinks and unending sharing of stories with Joan and Aladdin. Joan was trying to build up again my relationship with Aladdin, but I'm sorry girl, wala ng maibabalik. We were done!

4. Brgy. Election/Reunion

It was a Brgy. Election, but we took advantage of it to have our reunion inside our former school. Usual thing, we gathered our elementary classmates and talk and talk and talk! We also had our Truth or Dare game lead by Aladdin ( He's not our classmate, nakikisali lang, just kidding!) And, again, they asked me who my first kiss is, it took a while before I can answer 'coz I can't really remember.

Note: Sorry, I can't provide pictures because the phone that we used was lost. 

BIG X!

My emotions are really intense atm. Please bear with me if ever that I can write some inappropriate words and I will express myself in Tagalog/Filipino.

Its all about Lovelife again, (with crossline talaga, 'coz I really hate talking about it but I need to right now, I need someone to talk to)

So here's the story, I really can't move  on from my Ex and we had our relationship almost 5 years ago. This is what you call stupidity!! I always tell to him that I moved on, I am in love with another man, I am ready for a new relationship but all of those was a lie, I always pushing him away but now, there's a part of me blaming myself, why I keep myself doing that if until now, I still love him.

Yes, I accepted some suitors but none of them can replace him (I am really sorry for Mr. B and Mr.J, ayoko din kasi kayong paasahin, I don't want to use others just to forget him), I can't explain what he have that others don't. Maybe because I really took our relationship seriously, he was the only one that I introduced to my family and I am opened to talk about him most of the time. Please, I wanna forget him for quite some time but my heart and mind are not yet ready for this.

Now that  I am ready to be with him again, its also the time that he's ready to let go of me and maybe to find another woman. I can understand that he's also get tired of waiting but its hard for me to understand that why now?? Kung sana noon pa lang sumuko ka na at lumayo na nung pinapalayo kita, ginawa mo na, hindi na sana ganito kasakit.  I just wish him luck. I am happy whatever decision that he will make in the future.

'Til we meet again my best friend, partner and my lover.  

Trial and Error with the Ombre Nails

This is my second time to try this ombre nails and still, I made it a little bit messy. Atleast, almost perfect. If you wanna try it on your own, try to visit this website. I hope I also help you. :)

http://www.glamour.com/beauty/blogs/girls-in-the-beauty-department/2012/05/gradient-nails-picture-tutoria.html