Being the Only Girl

I am  the only girl in our family, and you know what I feel for that?? Mixed! Sometimes there is an advantage but mostly, I take it as disadvantage.

At first, I am enjoying it. Because whenever we had a quarrel or a fight with my younger brotha, our eldest take side on me. When I am asking for some stuffs to my father, he will give it to me, and my mum teaches me on how to be a girl.

But..... once I reached adolescence, big changes happened. Our guardian, my parents, my brothers even the younger one become stricter to me. They didn't allow me to go out with my friends especially when I'm with the boys (Seriously?? I can't live with it coz I am one of the boys), when I am texting, they always have a doubt who I am texting for, and because I am good at my academics, they don't want me to enter into a relationship or else, once I failed, they will blame the boy. Sometimes, you cannot avoid to feel that you're being prison without steel bars.

And now, I am trying to avoid my suitors and my guy/boy friends. To avoid any blame when I failed my Comprehensive Exams.

You know what, you don't know if  they're just being protective or they don't trust you either. 

HWAG ABUSUHIN ANG IBANG TAO.

Mula nung nagaral ako dito sa Manila, marami na kong napansin na hindi kanais nais na gawain ng iba't ibang klaseng indibidwal. Ngayong araw na to, gusto ko lang sana ibahagi ang aking karanasan sa pagsakay sa mga PEDICAB/TRICYCLE. Knina, dahil sa aalis na ung bus na sasakyan ng kapatid ko, ayun. Nagmadali ako from Chowking para bumili ng lunch nya, then sumakay ako ng pedicab going to Victory Liner. Hindi po yun kalayuan, pwede ngang lakarin e, kaso dahil sa time, napilitan ako. And I was so shocked when they told me P30 po ang bayad. Haller. Parang from PRC to FEU nga lang e. Dahil ayokong mabadtrip saka nagmamadali nako dahil aalis n nga ung bus, okay, nagbayad na lang ako. May mga tao talagang aabusuhin ka, minsan they are OVERPRICING kasi makikita nila na BATA ka pa, o kaya, mukha kang may kaya, mukhang kaya mong magbayad. Pare-parehas po tayong nangangailangan ng pera, alam ko po, nagsusumikap lang din po kayo para sa pamilya niu pero po sana, wag naman po kayong mangabuso ng ibang tao. Oo bata pa po ako saka babae pa, pero hindi po un dahilan para itake advantage niu po ang sitwasyon.

Sana, kung sino man po ang tamang institusyon na namamahala para sa mga Pedicab/Tricycle Drivers, sana naman po, may mga guidelines naman po kayo kung anu o paanu po ang tamang presyo ng pamasahe sa partikular na lugar o kung ilang kilometro ang tatahakin. At ito ay dapat sundin. Nang sa ganun, maiwasan po ang OVERPRICING. It will apply to all not for a particular group of people. Minsan, nasa atin ang problema kung bakit hindi umuunlad ang isang komunidad, kahit gaano kagaling ang mag lider kung ang mga tao nito ay walang disiplina, wala po tayong patutunguhan.

Pati rin po sa mga Taxi Drivers, kahit may metro na, nagpapadagdag pa rin sila. Dahil madami kayo o kaya dahil malayo. (ilang beses na kaming nakaranas ng gnyan ng aking mga kaibigan)

Down to Up

These past few days, I feel so disoriented. I mean, my goal, my motivation, everything turned down after our Prac1 (Financial Accounting Practical) Prelim Examination. It was a 3-hour exam but they extended it into 4-hour exam. You're shock? 'Coz it's too long, right?? Yea, it was a good opportunity to finish the exam, unfortunately, after two hours, I got tired, my brain stop thinking, its not functioning, even my hands cannot jive into what I want to do. In short, I stopped answering, another reason also was, my migraine attacked while I am having our exam. 

But what me sad even more? The feeling that I should not give up. First of all, its not on my list this semester to give up, sometimes, I maybe lazy but I never give up, on that moment, I didn't know what really happened, am also confused.

If you are an Accountancy student, you should possess the "never give up" attitude.

After more than a week, still I am trying to cope up, trying to forget it, though I know the fact that I never pass it when half of the time, I just made a guess. That's truly a miracle if ever that I can still get 75 huh, even 60. It was hard to move on especially when you studied that particular subject for more than a week but I am struggling, I don't know why I can't answer those problems. The important thing now is, I am still trying to be positive. It was just prelim, 25% of my grade, there are still 75% remaining. i am ready to fight again, and this time, I will do everything to pass all the subjects. I can do this!

Trial and Error with the Ombre Nails

This is my second time to try this ombre nails and still, I made it a little bit messy. Atleast, almost perfect. If you wanna try it on your own, try to visit this website. I hope I also help you. :)

http://www.glamour.com/beauty/blogs/girls-in-the-beauty-department/2012/05/gradient-nails-picture-tutoria.html

The "Reunion"

Coz I am not on the mood to study and review maybe because I am also bad trip, yesterday, I came up with the plan that I should visit my former apartment mates after I attended the mass at St. Jude. We had our dinner and we watched the movie Wanted led by Angelina Jolie, I didn't know who are the other characters there. Anyway, we definitely miss each other. We shared an unending laugh trips,  story telling and a lot more, of course, it will not be complete when we don't fool each other. So funny also to hear again how we fight because of TV Shows, who will do the household chores and decide what food that we should eat. We also talked our love lives, our families, and our education as well.

In the God's praise, Charmaine, Jb and my brother will be graduating this academic year while Jy, the youngest will be graduating next academic year. 

Photos below were taken last 2011 while we were having our pizza time. The pizza was sponsored by the boyfriend of Charmaine, Ced. 

The boys: (L-R) Joh Yhor, John Bong and Reymark
The girls: April and Charmaine

When It Counts

Not a typical “dance story”

We knew that making this story in this setting would be tricky. Why? Because it’s about a dance team and there are tons of “dance movies” to compare it to. But one very important point we wanted to make with this series is that it would try to be more authentic, how? Well, let’s just say dance teams are not always joining contest to win $50,000 to save their studio, or, most dancers on a team aren’t trying to pass some super elite audition. Of all the dancers we’ve come across, most are just regular guys and girls who love to dance for fun, are on a team just to perform, and that’s it. Most of the drama is not from the dancing, it’s from the people on the team. So we wanted to focus more on a relatable story, and have dance be part of it… rather than make the focus on dance, and try to find a story around the dance.

At this middle of the night, around 3 AM and I am still looking for something that can make me smile and again, I opened my YouTube account and look for WongFu Productions Short Films. Now, here we come,I found this web series they made.

I love it 'coz I feel connected because I am also a dancer.

Thanks for the WongFu Productions for making short films more interesting. Keep it up.

You may visit also their website/blog.

http://wongfuproductions.com/2012/11/when-it-counts-new-mini-series-premieres/

Friend being inlove with his Bestfriend

This time, hindi ko nafeel that one of my closest friends is in love with our common friend. As in, I am so shocked when I heard and red about his feelings. I don't know what to say, I don't know how should I react. 

I felt a little awkward 'coz theres a lot of assumptions, conclusions. I thought there was nothing, I thought i ts just a matter of friendship and I know that they are close enough.

Binalikan ko tuloy lahat ng nangyari if I said something negative about the girl, yea maybe. And I am sorry for that. If I just know that earlier, sana hindi na ko nagopen sayo. But I hope, someday, he will open up to me, not in a way that I am just relying on social media, on speculations. I hope he will forgive me about what I said about the girl. I was mad that time, bugso lang po ng damdamin.

Love Desserts

While our schoolmates having their first day of school, me and my friends Bitches

went to Love Desserts at Banawe, Manila. We started the school year with a very sweet life.

I just copied all the pictures from my friend 'coz I wasn't able to bring my cam that day.

Cakes

 Tacos, Mango, Fruit salad etc

 Crepe Section, for the filling you may choose between Apple, Blueberry, Strawberry and Banana

 For the kids and also for the adults. The blue one, is the ice cream area.

 Graham Cake, Brownies, Cookies, Empanada and Champorado

For only 199, you may enjoy their unlimited desserts for 2 hours.

Photo Credits: Abbey Giongco

Love Fools.

I’ve cried once but it happens again with the same man.

This time, it is a little bit complicated. We were in a relationship when we were high school, way back year 2008, now we’re in college and he tried so many times to court me. I pushed him away many times, ‘coz the truth is, it took me a very long time before I finally move on. Last Feb, I’ve decided to accept him again, not for a reason than I only force myself just to have boyfriend but for the unexpected events, it didn’t work.

Almost all the time he texted me, he always asked about the girl which happens to be my friend, one of my closest friend. For that, I feel so angry, why he needed to text me for that, why he didn’t text the girl, right?? When I confronted him, he told me that he only makes me jealous. The F! Then, pinalipas ko muna. We don’t have consistent communication, ‘coz we know that we were both busy. One time, he asked me on a date I guess, I also asked for my mum’s permission but because of his thesis, it didn’t happen then I found out that, that date would be, we were with the girl. I also heard that they were exchanging texts and even calls more usual than mine. Again, nagpakabulag ako.

Then last May, someone give me a hint about the two going out. I opened the tumblr account of the girl, I was so shocked. She didn’t mention the name of the guy but the description pointed to only one and yes, they dated. For them maybe, it was just only a friendly date but the way I see it, it was not. They watched Iron Man, ate at Tokyo Tokyo and he gave ferrero for the girl, and she gave two pieces to me without any idea that it was from my Ex-boyfriend and current suitor, if I didn’t opened her account, hindi ko pa malalaman.

I let him go, I didn’t opened this to the girl that I already knew though she knew about the courtship thing between me and the guy. Yes, I admitted, I pushed the guy saying that I am inlove with other guy but it was just to hide that I am hurt between him and my friend, I only used my guy to show that I am okay, that I am fine when he will make his decision to leave me.

If there would be the most stupid girl, that would be me! I told to my friends that I avoided his text and yet, I lied to them.

Recently, the guy texted me asking for my help. He wants to know why the girl avoiding him. She’s not answering his texts and calls. Then I texted the girl, yea I know, I am so stupid. She replied me and it sounds negative and there is something that comes in my mind that I am involved to this issue. Don’t have the plan to text the guy what my friend replied me because I don’t him to be hurt. Eventually, kakakulit ng guy, I quoted the text of the girl. And he told me that he loves her, he cannot accept if this girl would leave him. She is his saviour and he really loves her. She’s the only girl that can understand him. It hurts me, why? ‘Coz pinamukha niya sakin that’s I was the one who pushed him for that girl, all I did was to hurt him. It’s the time to move on and he asked me my help to win her back.

I already texted the girl that I know everything about her tumblr, their date and she apologized to me and told me that she likes him but not up to the point that she can love him back.

I am not on the position to be a hindrance with their relationship, they have their own decisions. I am here to accept and respect whatever they want. In time, everything will be okay. It was just a part of growing up and our past.

Tho, I pushed him many times. It would never be right to use that reason why you are now inlove with my friend. I can accept the fact that he may now love with my friend if he didn’t asked me to accept him again and if from the start, my friend and the guy told me everything, they told me that they were going out for a “date”. I asked the guy many times, it was just a friend but now, how can you explain that now your inlove with her.

May mga kasalanan ako at pagkukulang sa mga minamahal kong tao, may mga bagay na hindi ko maibigay na binibigay ng iba sayo, but don’t use it to me as reasons why you need to find another girl dahil ikaw din. Nasaktan na naman ako dahil minahal ko ung guy and I trust the girl. This situation,I will not put all the blame to them 

‘coz I myself also did things that will hurt me.

I am the one who push the guy many times and now, it’s time for him to be happy.

Hindi po kasakiman ang magparaya at magmahal.

Not yet end.

We first met during our first year in our university,

we came from Section AC09106 during the 1st semester but when the second term came,

we didn't have a choice but to be away with our friends that we started on and despite of it,

we build a new one, with a new member. Tho we didn't expect it that

it will happen. 

In our second sem, we were belong to AC09114. And we have our new friend,

her name is Haezellene Mae Lagonera. As the time goes by,

Haezel decided to make a name for our group and that is FAM12.

And to tell you frankly, Mark and I would not understand where it came from.

We continued our friendship 'til second year when our institute, the IABF decided to have a Resectioning in our batch and that would be a hard time for us because we will be separated to each other.

And still we survived!

Suddenly, a verdict comes in! We had our "Battery Test" last March 2011,

and not all of us were fortunate to pass the exam to qualify and continue the BSA Program.

Only me and Claire left in the said program, while Haezel transferred to another school. On the other hand, Jelly, Kat, Keith, Mark and Mich shifted to Internal Auditing.

We admit, there would be changes but still, we find ways to have time to each other. Every one of us may have a circle of friends inside the classroom but we know the fact that, there is still FAM12 that will never fade even the time passes by. And now that they will be graduating with their chosen career.

I played a role as their mom, and now I can't describe how I am grateful to them. I am so happy and proud that they will be graduating with flying colors. Someday, we will meet again. You don't know, on that time,

we are successful with our careers. Without you, my college life iis incomplete.

Just like the famous line with the students,

Gagraduate tayo, hindi nga lang sabay-sabay.