First!

     This is what I am telling about, though you keep on telling that you already accepted what may be the result is, there are still differences once you are already in that position. You can only say, 'okay', 'I should still be thankful' but sometimes, the hurt is there, you cannot take the pain away in just a simple glimpse.

     Actually, I am expecting this but not to the point that as in, WHAAAAAAAAT? Seriously, I am not prepared for that. First of all, I don't know how and what to tell to my parents, it would be a big  disappointment for them. They are not prepared for this! Though, I tried to talk to them, what if  like this, like that, but you know what they answered, 'No, No, No!' so how??? Spare me guys! I think, this post is likea mess, I messed up!

    At the moment, I am wishing that i hope, this pain would just stay for a while. I am trying, I will get there! This is the first time that I failed! Yet, not prepared. And last thing, this is my first time that i wish that please, i don't wanna wake up anymore!

Please spare me.

Messed Up

I've been very busy lately because of school activities and comprehensive exams. Semestral break already started, and the other night, it was a blast. It was my first time to be drunk like that, ever! Really intense! I mean, I don't remember what happened that moment, how I sleep, almost everything. Then, when I woke up, hang over attacked! Headache, no appetite, then all you wanted is to sleep and lay down on your bed.

I hope I could catch up, I'll update my blog very soon. This time, I just wanna spend my time watching TVD, The Originals, Glee and Suits. Kill me now! I am so outdated.

Winding Up

As part of our relax mode after the month-long review and exams, we had decided to celebrate the birthday of our friend Abbey at the UP Diliman. The original plan was, we will see each other by 10 AM but as usual, there were a lot of delays. We went there without any plans what should we do and where should we go.

Since, we didn't have our lunch yet, o my G! we spent almost 2 hours just by looking and finding where should we eat. While we were walking, I red the sign board of Cool Beans Cafe (Food and Books), we went inside and our yes were amazed, as in big wow. So we had decided that we can have our lunch there.

This Cafe offers hot and cold coffees, juice drinks, cupcakes and paninis. Unfortunately, I didn't tried it because I am still full after our lunch. They also offered rice meals like what we ate. While in their mini library, you can read about Philippine History, Novels like from Paulo Coelho and George Martin, Mythologies, Photography, Archie's, Pugad Baboy, national Geographic Magazines and many many many more.

Fried Chicken

Fried Chicken Afritada (This is mine!)

Owww. I'm sorry, I don't remember what is it. :(

with the birthday celebrant and my super duper close friend, Abbey

Different design and sizes of picture frames and mirrors. One wall clock at the center to balance the interior

Mini library

National Geographic Magazines

I was reading about photography

I had so much fun reading and eating. Everyone must try and visit their cafe. And definitely, you will enjoy it. I swear tho they have not that good service when it comes to rice meals. They cooked a little bit slow. Peace!

Being the Only Girl

I am  the only girl in our family, and you know what I feel for that?? Mixed! Sometimes there is an advantage but mostly, I take it as disadvantage.

At first, I am enjoying it. Because whenever we had a quarrel or a fight with my younger brotha, our eldest take side on me. When I am asking for some stuffs to my father, he will give it to me, and my mum teaches me on how to be a girl.

But..... once I reached adolescence, big changes happened. Our guardian, my parents, my brothers even the younger one become stricter to me. They didn't allow me to go out with my friends especially when I'm with the boys (Seriously?? I can't live with it coz I am one of the boys), when I am texting, they always have a doubt who I am texting for, and because I am good at my academics, they don't want me to enter into a relationship or else, once I failed, they will blame the boy. Sometimes, you cannot avoid to feel that you're being prison without steel bars.

And now, I am trying to avoid my suitors and my guy/boy friends. To avoid any blame when I failed my Comprehensive Exams.

You know what, you don't know if  they're just being protective or they don't trust you either. 

HWAG ABUSUHIN ANG IBANG TAO.

Mula nung nagaral ako dito sa Manila, marami na kong napansin na hindi kanais nais na gawain ng iba't ibang klaseng indibidwal. Ngayong araw na to, gusto ko lang sana ibahagi ang aking karanasan sa pagsakay sa mga PEDICAB/TRICYCLE. Knina, dahil sa aalis na ung bus na sasakyan ng kapatid ko, ayun. Nagmadali ako from Chowking para bumili ng lunch nya, then sumakay ako ng pedicab going to Victory Liner. Hindi po yun kalayuan, pwede ngang lakarin e, kaso dahil sa time, napilitan ako. And I was so shocked when they told me P30 po ang bayad. Haller. Parang from PRC to FEU nga lang e. Dahil ayokong mabadtrip saka nagmamadali nako dahil aalis n nga ung bus, okay, nagbayad na lang ako. May mga tao talagang aabusuhin ka, minsan they are OVERPRICING kasi makikita nila na BATA ka pa, o kaya, mukha kang may kaya, mukhang kaya mong magbayad. Pare-parehas po tayong nangangailangan ng pera, alam ko po, nagsusumikap lang din po kayo para sa pamilya niu pero po sana, wag naman po kayong mangabuso ng ibang tao. Oo bata pa po ako saka babae pa, pero hindi po un dahilan para itake advantage niu po ang sitwasyon.

Sana, kung sino man po ang tamang institusyon na namamahala para sa mga Pedicab/Tricycle Drivers, sana naman po, may mga guidelines naman po kayo kung anu o paanu po ang tamang presyo ng pamasahe sa partikular na lugar o kung ilang kilometro ang tatahakin. At ito ay dapat sundin. Nang sa ganun, maiwasan po ang OVERPRICING. It will apply to all not for a particular group of people. Minsan, nasa atin ang problema kung bakit hindi umuunlad ang isang komunidad, kahit gaano kagaling ang mag lider kung ang mga tao nito ay walang disiplina, wala po tayong patutunguhan.

Pati rin po sa mga Taxi Drivers, kahit may metro na, nagpapadagdag pa rin sila. Dahil madami kayo o kaya dahil malayo. (ilang beses na kaming nakaranas ng gnyan ng aking mga kaibigan)

Down to Up

These past few days, I feel so disoriented. I mean, my goal, my motivation, everything turned down after our Prac1 (Financial Accounting Practical) Prelim Examination. It was a 3-hour exam but they extended it into 4-hour exam. You're shock? 'Coz it's too long, right?? Yea, it was a good opportunity to finish the exam, unfortunately, after two hours, I got tired, my brain stop thinking, its not functioning, even my hands cannot jive into what I want to do. In short, I stopped answering, another reason also was, my migraine attacked while I am having our exam. 

But what me sad even more? The feeling that I should not give up. First of all, its not on my list this semester to give up, sometimes, I maybe lazy but I never give up, on that moment, I didn't know what really happened, am also confused.

If you are an Accountancy student, you should possess the "never give up" attitude.

After more than a week, still I am trying to cope up, trying to forget it, though I know the fact that I never pass it when half of the time, I just made a guess. That's truly a miracle if ever that I can still get 75 huh, even 60. It was hard to move on especially when you studied that particular subject for more than a week but I am struggling, I don't know why I can't answer those problems. The important thing now is, I am still trying to be positive. It was just prelim, 25% of my grade, there are still 75% remaining. i am ready to fight again, and this time, I will do everything to pass all the subjects. I can do this!

Trial and Error with the Ombre Nails

This is my second time to try this ombre nails and still, I made it a little bit messy. Atleast, almost perfect. If you wanna try it on your own, try to visit this website. I hope I also help you. :)

http://www.glamour.com/beauty/blogs/girls-in-the-beauty-department/2012/05/gradient-nails-picture-tutoria.html

The "Reunion"

Coz I am not on the mood to study and review maybe because I am also bad trip, yesterday, I came up with the plan that I should visit my former apartment mates after I attended the mass at St. Jude. We had our dinner and we watched the movie Wanted led by Angelina Jolie, I didn't know who are the other characters there. Anyway, we definitely miss each other. We shared an unending laugh trips,  story telling and a lot more, of course, it will not be complete when we don't fool each other. So funny also to hear again how we fight because of TV Shows, who will do the household chores and decide what food that we should eat. We also talked our love lives, our families, and our education as well.

In the God's praise, Charmaine, Jb and my brother will be graduating this academic year while Jy, the youngest will be graduating next academic year. 

Photos below were taken last 2011 while we were having our pizza time. The pizza was sponsored by the boyfriend of Charmaine, Ced. 

The boys: (L-R) Joh Yhor, John Bong and Reymark
The girls: April and Charmaine

When It Counts

Not a typical “dance story”

We knew that making this story in this setting would be tricky. Why? Because it’s about a dance team and there are tons of “dance movies” to compare it to. But one very important point we wanted to make with this series is that it would try to be more authentic, how? Well, let’s just say dance teams are not always joining contest to win $50,000 to save their studio, or, most dancers on a team aren’t trying to pass some super elite audition. Of all the dancers we’ve come across, most are just regular guys and girls who love to dance for fun, are on a team just to perform, and that’s it. Most of the drama is not from the dancing, it’s from the people on the team. So we wanted to focus more on a relatable story, and have dance be part of it… rather than make the focus on dance, and try to find a story around the dance.

At this middle of the night, around 3 AM and I am still looking for something that can make me smile and again, I opened my YouTube account and look for WongFu Productions Short Films. Now, here we come,I found this web series they made.

I love it 'coz I feel connected because I am also a dancer.

Thanks for the WongFu Productions for making short films more interesting. Keep it up.

You may visit also their website/blog.

http://wongfuproductions.com/2012/11/when-it-counts-new-mini-series-premieres/

Friend being inlove with his Bestfriend

This time, hindi ko nafeel that one of my closest friends is in love with our common friend. As in, I am so shocked when I heard and red about his feelings. I don't know what to say, I don't know how should I react. 

I felt a little awkward 'coz theres a lot of assumptions, conclusions. I thought there was nothing, I thought i ts just a matter of friendship and I know that they are close enough.

Binalikan ko tuloy lahat ng nangyari if I said something negative about the girl, yea maybe. And I am sorry for that. If I just know that earlier, sana hindi na ko nagopen sayo. But I hope, someday, he will open up to me, not in a way that I am just relying on social media, on speculations. I hope he will forgive me about what I said about the girl. I was mad that time, bugso lang po ng damdamin.